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sigh seems that this blog is going to stop on this 479th post for quite a while, as expected, my mum meeting my teacher was not exactly going to turn out very well. sigh.. now its allllll studying for me. yes yes remedial here remedial there remedial everywheeeere, monday tuitions tuesday remedials wednesday remedials with double dosage, thursday remedials with lessons till 430 with only half hour break, friday with remedial with pow. sigh, life just gotta get better cause now i need to arrange time for peer tutoring and im going to get econs tuition on saturdays woohoo. but now that its mentioned, this is starting to look really really bad cause i have like 7/8 weeks for promos and i really need to promote, cause, erm... school fees are expensive? what a good reason. so its study study study study, wait, no, as mr quek says, study SMART, study SMART study SMART. so , this is going prob going to be the last post before promos start, unless something truly upsetting or truly happy-fying happens along the way. studyyyyyyy, cause chem lecture test is coming. damn, and i really wanted to add her on msn, but guess this itpsidc thing just came at the wrongest wrongest wrongest time ever. but no, i can only do that after promos, motivation motivation lol, see, i provided myself with motivation to study again, what a great motivator i am. and im really really really sorry to jianrui jialin xiaotian and whoever tried to persuade me to go inspire run cause i dont think im going to be there (well at least the money was donated), cause my mum found out that my econs was bottom of level =( as muchh as i would looooooooove to be at inspire run FOR THE SUNSHINE AND EXERCISE ONLY, i cant cause my mother is pawning me left right centre up down insideout. maybe there will be another time =P

and as everyone can see it, im not in the mood for some smart ass post today so lets get it straight to the point.

and i just hate it when people assumes im not worried just because i dont look worried. what do i have to do? bite my finger nails? tear at my hair? tap my feet anxiously? start mugging even when im on the bus? just because i look happy on the outside does not mean that i dont know how fucked up my results are ok? i mean emoing and throwing random tantrums isnt going to get me anywhere is it? but if im forever cheerful, at least ppl around can benefit from that one little bit. so screw it, im never going to emo. yes yes i AM bloody worried (i only used worried because i dont feel like spamming the f word) about my results, and i AM studying like fuck everyday. so i fucking dont need someone to be nagging and giving me constant reminder in the background in an undertone while im studying because its fucking not going to help, just say it all in my face for like 5mins and let me go off after that la dammit. and she wonders why i buy earphones for, i dont mind having earphones but no mp3 just to let her know that im not listening to all that shit she says. but as much as i try to block out her retarded words, i still hear it inevitably and its really quite pissing off to hear the shit she says. i think her main aim is to see me flustered and all, cause apparently if u go about the day smiling and slouching and being happy, people dont get the feeling that u are worried, but if u go around with furrowed eyebrows and ur mouth twisted into a frown of frustration, it means u are studying really hard. wow what a logic. i really think confidence is important cause if i dont believe i can actually study to promote then there no point even starting to study for it, its just like polo in a sense lol. sigh life is about being confident and having the ability to back it up i guess. and my teacher apparently think that im trying to "be cool" by being cheerful when i talk to teacher, what. the. fuck fish. cause i really dont give a shit anymore to what they think, i just want to promote with a CDES and C for gp, i need at least S for maths cause if not i have to drop to h1. sigh looks like i cant just study really hard 3 other subjects lol. go go study time!

sigh and as im talking here, the pre olympics waterpolo friendly is going on and im missing out on some of the nicest matches ever =(((((((((((((((((( but polo later, study now first.

so till then guys, after promos =D life would be a million percent better alr.

and eunice is damn retarded, she smsed me "so was it headshot, or open fire?" when i was talking (more like getting scolded) my mum.

and lets hear a word of advice from the loser who got 4U's for his block test. in life, dont care what you do, just win at it.

and i also want to say sorry to all the ppl i drag down to play polo with yesterday despite the opponents being some noob little kids cause i got a feeling that its going to be the last time im playing polo in quite a while and the next time i play polo again, im going to be disgustingly lousy. but eoy polo is going to be a blast especially during holidays woohoo. the road to immortality is long, but we will earn it eventually dont worry.





itpsidc!!!!!!!!!! but i really really have to wait before i try. sorry yipyang.