ghsweth

staying at home on a holiday is seriously so fucking boring, like soo soo soo soo fucking boring. hahaha last year this time. i was like.. uh.. training HAHAHA. oh wait, i think my parents werent at home or sometihng like that lmao. but this is sooooo fucking boring. arghh, my first time playing with the big ppl later... im uber scared i get fucked in the ass sigh.

i dunno, i dont need anything i guess, but i can give up anything and everything in order to achieve that dream? haha mr thong asked me what future is there in chasing polo. i dunno, maybe i just want to excel in the something that im good at, or maybe the only thing im good at (relatively). its sad but yea i think i need the confirmation that if i work hard on something i want i can actualyl achieve results? haha im not giving a shit about whatever happens already from now on. our lives aint interwined, i have a dream to chase!!!! haha gogogo polo!