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army army army suxxxx im in camp now because im confined argh.

extreme pt this week and im really super duper bored so im going to blog more hahaha.

it so so sux to be in here, just cleaned some commanders' bunk shit. mopped the floor. dip it in the pail. let the water turn brown. mop the floor with brown water. repeat. the floor is greyish brown anyway...

but army is super boringgggg, how long more till i can come out and play poloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. we had polo in camp that day ahahaha, polo captains ball, thats what its called, but well, there were some elements of polo there i guess. haha

argh i cant take this shitttttttttttttt, i miss polo so fucking much, i miss polo people so fucking much, and the people i miss arent free to talk or are never able to talk. i want to play play play play play play play play play play play play polo. and ..argh.. nvm. it just sux on all accounts now. it wouldnt be the first time i say it but i really want to sink into the water and forget all the shit that goes on in life. army sux but my bunk mates made it tolerable i swear, without them i would have slit my wrist, eat cookhouse food and hung myself. and they thought me so manny songs that im going to type out cause goign to google and searching and copy and pasting them takes so much longer.

a hundred days has made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lies has made me colder
and i dont think i can look at this the same
and all the miles that separate (music)
they disappeared now when im dreaming of your face

im here without you baby,
your still on my lonely mind (this one is going lower tone)
i think about you baby,
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams (low tone)
because tonight girl,
its only you and me

the miles just keep rolling,
as the people bid their way to say hello
i've learnt this life is overrated
but i hope that it gets better as we go
(music) oh yea~

im here without you baby,
your still on my lonely mind (goes higher)
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams (high)
cause tonight girl,
its only you and me~

everytime i know,
anywhere i go,
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
when the last piece fall
when its all said and done
it gets hard but it wont take
away
my love~

im here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby,
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby,
but your still with me in my dreams
cause tonight girl, its only you and me

ooh typed that in record low time. haha and the most fucked thing happen when i was doing uni app. thanks to facebook, it took me like 2 and a half hours to complete my uni app, including my pretty long discretionary appeal essay. then after i was done, i pressed submit, and they said "session timedout" -.- and i have to redo everything wtf.

argh tonight is going to be some sad and lonely night man. wellllll, on the bright side, i get to withdraw my pay for the first time muahahaha, it feels good to earn your own money man. like fuckkkkking good.

but although im talking so much shit, i just feel like lying down and sleep and pretending the whole world is cut away from me. but again, thats almost literally true. but playing polo would be good too, when results, life, family, ARMY, future dosent play a part. where we just go back to the time when we lived to breathe the chlorine water. its becoming some sort of escape i guess, maybe polo is like drugs, u actually get addicted to playing it and it helps you get all high no matter what your mood is. but drugs dont get you scratches and bruises hahaha. but well, they remind you that you are alive still, and that you can pull through all the shit that opponents throw at you and still win it. what an untrue reflection of life heh. and yes im just talking incoherent gibberish thats about eveything that comes to my mind zzz.

i want a photo of polo ppl, remind me that i aint alone in all this shit. i want another photo, to remind me that even through all this shit, theres still a moment to smile for.