its tiring man, but its fun, but its tiring, but its fun, but its tiring. argh its just about which part triumphs over the will power in the end.

lifes so fucking stressful man, uni apps and stuff. "and stuff" just means its stuff too delicate to be said here. haha but yea i've run out of witty quotes and cheerful blogging i realized. nowadays its just short emotionless posts. fuck this man i really hate this uncertainty, every fucking thing is an uncertainty in my life nowadays. oh wait, there is a certainty, its certainly fucked up lol.

went down to watch the bboys played their 3rd 4th placing match today. uh it was... (horrendous would be an understatement, so lets leave it as ... ). makes me wonder what i was like back then. its funny though, how the bronze medal becomes such a glorious prize that the opponent players (better not state names here in case of another internet backlash ahaha) were celebrating like fuck when they won, they were pumping their fists out with their index finger stuck out. ok i just meant, they were pointing outwards. i mean isnt the meaning of that action like saying " WE ARE NUMBER ONE!!!!" uh.. but dint you just win bronze, you should be like showing your ring middle and index fingers in a gesture proclaiming to the world WE ARE NUMBER THREE!!! ok i guess we are lucky that water polo dont give us too many opponents or the lower tier teams will start having quite a chore showing WE ARE NUMBER TWENTY SEVEN etc. but yea, i think hwachong, either through bad luck, bad attitude or bad attitude or bad attitude, is seriously going down man. when i ord, i'm dead serious about trying to go back and change things, no matter how little i can do, i dont want a future where i tell other players that "hey guys i was from hc" then they would be like "LOL!" hahaha, no not that serious, but i really wanna help out. but again considering the fuckshit attitude the cboys showed me the last time...

since its such a long time since i last blogged, might as well make it abit longer. its like i feel so alienated to most people i know, i hardly talk to anyone but my army friends and my polo friends, wow how i really miss school. as usual, i meant i miss school but not studying haha.

and no i really have no mood or idea to extend this post any further, soooo....

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maybe its a nice sign that it takes time even to remember your number now. maybe when even that slips away, so will memories