its just like starting the cycle of junior to senior all over again. i feel as though i've entered secondary school again, if last year, my first year in nat team was sec1, this year would be sec2. still making lots of mistakes and being a total idiot. its like as if i lost the hunger to score, one on zero opportunities to me are like chances to test out my stupidity, fuck this man, gotten so used to having people covering and so used to people claiming its ok to miss shots. growing accustomed to all this is seriously fucking with my life. from now on, every shot is as if i was back in those early days when i wanted to prove myself, decisive and fast, even a lob has to be a nice one, no more of those half hearted rubbish.