as usual my blog posts nowadays come out in little spurts of random alphabets put together. but by some freakish luck, they tend to form sentences, hence the spelling mistakes and grammar mistakes haha.

i would just like to say i finally found out the things that make my engine work. i live on sugar and adrenaline, wow with either one of those, i can keep going for a long long time man.

and on a totally random note, i realize comic teaches you so really cheem philosophy too, i was reading some xmen comic and charles xavier said this "fate is the word cowards use to describe things that they are too weak to change". true to a certain extend i guess, isnt it? notice how many times we tell ourselves that things are meant to be this way simply cause its over and done with. i seem to gain these new epiphanies when its fucking fucking late at night, or really really really early in the morning haha. dont ask me why, maybe when your mind is still awake but your body is too tired to continue, you can enter a zen mode where you pluck out abstract ideas from nowhere. ah, heres where there is a fine line between being deeply profound and just spewing gibberish, i have no idea where i stand now HAHA.

i realize im only 20 yet i live in the past, where there were awesome days in schools, where i was playing awesome passionate polo, where i was enjoying the best years of my life and where i knew people i wont forget in this life even if i wanted to. and when i look at the present and the future, it just seems bleak and uncertain.
























its in the past but why cant i just seem to forget