argh, this thing is truly bugging me, bloody terrible training today and im afraid i wont feel good until i have my next great training day. this ivp is killing me, its making me forget how to play proper waterpolo all over again. its a great change to play for smu and national team, from a place where everything you do is right to a place where there are no superstars where everybody is equal. or it could be just be me finding an excuse for this recent selfish form ive been in, no doubt i do manage to put in some shots now and then but they are STILL selfish plays. really cant wait for ivp to be over, i dont really give a shit about that competition but when im in the pool, all i want to do is win. but i want to get back to proper training and making my way to being number 1!