frustration max. i dont want to be only able to perform against lesser goalies. really shit performance today. how can i shoot bad if the team relies on me for it. first its shit performance at nat team, now its shit performance at smu too. of course there are factors and reasons but they all come as excuses in the end because to be a team ace, you can never fail to perform. NEVER. ever ever ever ever ever ever ever. disgustingly poor week, hope it turns around sigh.

really gotta learn everything again from the basics