tyw

sigh... im feeling damn lousy now. i realize i get upset most frequently over polo only lol... well, there are weirdo people out there who get upset over integration though, i also know people who get upset over retarded stuff like ur-gf-daoing u type of thing. haha back to the topic. played with the old man today, and i realize jianming (? not sure thats his name since they call him jiandao) is damn good, and if thats his JC2 standard cause i doubt he actually trains anymore, then theres so much more space to improve. and what the f*, my shots today were imba lousy to the max, its like freaking freaking crap la, i cant even cai up to shoot. not mentioning being a good player, im deproving wtf. argh, gotta analyze what the hell go wrong everytime, why i get turned so easily, im not even aiming to be like them, im aiming to be better than them. i dont care whether hes some hwachong legend. sigh... how much more to i have to put in to be the best, i realize all that weeny bit of effort that i thought was alot wasnt enough, not at all, what else must i give, put in, to become the best. why dont god just give me a definite answer? i dont mind travelling to the end of the world if it was to obtain that answer, then i can travel back to achieve it. but just how much more? sigh... looks like its limitless, i just have to train harder to make sure i can do what i set out to do. i dont want to be just a flank, i want to be able to cover other positions for the team too. but i DO want to be the best flank. haha, so much more to learn, learning from these old guys are actually quite useful, learnt some tricks from the way they play too lol. like duck and jianming both use the same trick to turn, let u go in too deep into his side, then wrist flick and move at the same time. haha, next week they are in for a surprise man i swear. zzz i got over the fact that im no tensai (genius, just thought it sounds more cool in jap lol), the only thing im good for is swimming, haha thats why i have to work extra extra hard, im going to get all my top corners and btm corners and donuts, and im going to drive even those damn bao li ppl that alvin invites to play with us. im going to be the best, i dont care even if im the lousiest now, but i will reach there.

sigh polo makes me so sian of talking about happy stuffs lol.
cant think of much happy stuff to say anyway.


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