i was just reading my old posts cause i had nothing to do. then i realized what happened when we grew older, we stopped dreaming, i once said that i would carry all the unaccomplished dreams my teammates left in the pool on my shoulders and bring it onto a international stage, but yet now, im just a shadow of the player i want to be. i always get emotional reading my 2009 blogposts. cause thats when i still had my 2 loves of my life