im usually more composed than this but this is really difficult. i guess if i didnt give a fuck about this school team life would have been much easier for me but sadly, as it is, i kinda care quite abit about it at the moment. hopefully it will die down but losing has never been easy for me to swallow. and theres honestly hardly anybody to talk to about this because i dont think anyone really understands the way i feel about this whole shit. guess i'll just shoulder on. if doing the work for 2 players isnt enough, i'll do enough for 3 or 4 or even 5, i dont want to leave any game with any regrets.