tyuert

haha thats IT. im going to study 2mrw. study study study. and im going to study before any of u suckers, namely chingto zhonghan come and disrupt me from my studies. once i get into my momentum, i doubt u can do anything to stop me from studying ahahaha. actually disrupting me = appearing. just by appearing, u retards bring out the fun loving ever hyperactive side of me that just wants to PLAY PLAY PLAY. haha sucks la, 4 ppl get together = cards. then if u dont join in, u looks like some villain because 3 que 1 then cannot zao. haha but im not complaining cause playing hearts is super fun, and super thrilling. and playing chess or playing bridge or playing ANYTHING with ur teammates are damn fun cause just being with u guys are already addictive ahaha. 2mrw im going to STUDY. damn. and i hate it when u retarded ppl whole day try to lure me into a state of embarassment, LIKE IN CORO TODAY, assholes. wait till i get my turn u losers. haha wait, but talking about it, i DO get my turns and i have been exploiting them shamelessly, esp like benjamin. ok, i take it back then, i deserved it hahaha. and benjamin sux at hearts. like TOTALLY suck at it.

grrr training was jut crap today. well, weights was ok, cause apparently doing weights in the morning feels less tiring then doing weights in the afternoon. FEELS. but in actual fact, its the same. yea yea, i did everything today, PLUS pull ups. woohoo and i dont feel tired. then i went in to swim with satan's revered adriel, supposedly unstoppable machine that can dislocate people's elbow with a slight swim-into-him. i was filled with fear as i cowered beside him. but uh... without warm up i still pawned the ass out of all the little kids. haha, i did 27, omg, my form owns. and thats without warm up. zz then we practiced shooting and passing. SHIT, my shooting is just like... as i just said, shit. sigh... i have no idea whats wrong la, i tread high and all those shit, only towards the end it was ok, but at the start it was pure pure crap. and our 6 on 5 is like...erm... crap? i dunno, maybe its because we not chiong enough yet. but sigh.. i just dont like the feeling of not owning little kids. it just feels like we are performing below expactations. its not that i love to shout at people when they make mistake lor... its like DUH i shout in the hopes of the team becoming better right (not because i have an excess of saliva). haha no la, i just think that its not right to just say that cause its not season so we can lax abit, but i think its like i dunno. just weird to go in and not give our best la. i think its kind of a waste la if u get me, zz no offence for anyone i screamed at today, im not some angel too la, i make dumb fuck mistakes that till now, i scream at myself not too. i even know my own weaknesses, too showy, too solo, shitty passsing (which is the result of too solo cause u hardly pass the ball around), talk too much during match, weak defense. haha maybe its ok for us to slack now before its season too la. but i dont care, cause i want to train my bestestestest everytime im in the pool, so sorry la, i do get frustrated some times cause im just not doing what i want my self to do, so i sort of get pissed at u guys haha. nah, i know u guys dont take it too heart but yup, i dont feel that good also la after screaming my ass off. but i really do wnat to do my best every training because i just feel that i wasnt able to do what was expected of me this year la, i think i played quite a big part in us losing so i guess i wont be honey mooning around because i really really want to make sure that i can make up for all the shit i did this year and all the crap i passed and all the crap i shot and all the crap i did la. maybe. just maybe, by training harder i wont feel so guilty haha. ya i think im such a idiot cause training dosent matter, its only the results that people see. but i dont care, i believe in hard work cause i dont think im talented at all, (maybe i dont believe in hardwork in studying, for THAT, i believe more in luck) haha im just going to work my freaking best. well, i CAN loosen up once in a while i guess. haha and where the hell have i went to, i was talking about training grr.. digressing. ya and i heard aaron pawned some robber who had a scissors LOL. to save his gf. *imagines the type of "my hero <3"* scene that u see in those retarded to the max advertisments. haha why dont anyone rob me when im in a totally fucked up mood too sigh. because i was busying teaching aaron nonsensical moves (that actually makes sense) to kill people. but uh... thats abit too violent cause i was thinking more along the line of paralyze the guy haha, definitely nc16 lol. and which robber would rob a school boy and a school girl of their BAGS? what? mugger robber? fetish for books? run out of fuel to feed the fire? well, i can think of a thousand and one excuses for a robber to rob a student but i shall stop here. the robber prob just wanted to rob him of his secret savings in his pencil case or something. shit, there i go again. haha, please rob me someone! correction, pls rob me someone-that-is-weaker-than-me-and-have-some-small-weapon when im in a super bad mood. hmm thats better. never ask for more than u can take on hahaha. i think im full of crap.

hmm thats about all for today then, while i leave my maplestory to install. SHIT i should be studying.

*smash my head against wall, screaming repeatedly, "STUDY"*
*bleeds*
*dies*

crap im talking nonsense AGAIN.

more training at toapayoh on thursday yay.

study 2mrw i must. (in the most yoda voice i can muster)