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sigh.. so much happened in like just 3 days? sigh.. my grandma's-sister just passed away like a few days ago, i have to use grandma's sister cause i dunno how to say it in english lol. going to the wake seems so unreal, seeing her body inside, lifeless but covered with makeup seems so unnatural too. ppl crying for the loss of u, ppl walking around u as u lay senseless, i realize that for the first time, im actually scared of death haha. shit, i dont want to die, i want to live forever, i want to be an immortal, i dont care if i sound like some evil antagonist of some comic book, sigh.. but after thinking, i realize theres no point living if everyone else that u know are all dead. dilemna, whether to be an immortal or not lol. not that i have a choice, i AM an immortal. yea, in my dreams i guess.

yea, and i realize i really kinda like some of those little kids i teach. althought i shout and scream at them and push their table and (oops) use vulgarities, PLUS teach them lots of things they are not supposed to know. haha.. thats it, im never going to be a teacher when i grow up, i hate it when students just keep leaving u after u have a bond with them lol. lucky this is a five day cip thingi, i wont be seeing them THAT much too. haha and i HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO BUY THEM! last day.. but what.. haha buggers wanted happy meal but thats so totally out of the question cause i cant afford 5 happy meals for 5 kids. plus im saving money now, i want to buy a BMW. lol.. ok talking crap, ferrari only =P haha sigh, its the last day with them 2mrw already. i got their msn! haha wth i dint get msn until sec1 la... high tech kids. haha and no to mention we played soccer everyday with the kids and go back to class late. i think its actually quite fun la.. haha and i play hangman with them everydayyy and release them late and terrorise them by making them raise their hand everytime they want to talk. then i teach them words that they dint know before (OOOOOOPS) like pj which i shant elaborate any further. and i was teaching this girl called celine that in pri sch u play computer games, then sec sch u play sports games, then jc u play guys HAHA shit, i dint have zhonghan around to elaborate by holding his hand LOL. and zhonghan is a PAEDOPHiLE, like benjamin. sigh.. i shall not say why but ya, zhonghan finds every pri sch girl cute.. shit u la, go for sec sch girls at least right. and pri sch girls crowd around zhonghan during recesses! GASP pimping them at such an age HAHAHa. ok shit, im full of nonsense.

YAY POLO ON SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

and shit i havent been doing crunches for 4 days alr.

but i did pullups woohoo