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haha first day in cambodia, using some sick keyboard which has no alphabets now wtf.

ok its ok here, nice room.

had dinner at open air steamboat. i think i killed like 20 insects of varying species, and some of them flew into my food wtf. spent the last 20min cooking insects after everyone is done cooking. its damnnn sick, grasshoppers, worms, flies, mosquitoes, u name it, no scorpions though. looking forward to some aircon instead.

CHELSEA VS ARSENAL 2mrw!!! and i can watch it in my room woots.

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cambodia incoming.... zzzz who the hell wants to go.

and sentosa today was awesome max, walked in the heavy rain, played beach soccer, beach vball, frisbee AND LOOKED AT CHIOBU. hahaha the girl was damnnnn hot. and her boyfriend was... =( haha and shanrui threw the frisbee to her so i can get it from her =))) awesome skills. haha hott girlllllllll!!!!!!

awesome company, awesome trip, not so awesome drink prices. and FUCKING AWESOME EYE CANDY!

zzz cambodia

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argh i feel like such a nub. i actually persuaded myself out of swimming cause of the heat. fuck you yipyang fuck you yipyang fuck you yipyang fuck you yipyang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but actually, the sun was so bad that my sun burns were getting burned again. hmmm. but fuck that was patheticcccc seriously, i swear im gonna swim when i come back.

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so let me slip away

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haha today was just another day of sun beating on your back till your previous unrecovered sun burn start heating up and feel mega fucked up. and i cant carry my bad on my shoulder either zzzz.

sigh and my parents are just screwd up, whats wrong with staying over night outside, so now instead of being at zouk with my teammates/friends, im stuck in my room using my brothers labtop cause my com is still screwed. lol, on the bright side, alevels are over yay. hahaha still havent gotten over it lol.

then we went to play with the sp ppl at night. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. it was a disgusting game for me luh. yea, sure we thrashed them. but sigh i dont see myself being much different from them, i pass like shit and i play really selfish plays. fuck myself man, underestimating your opponents even before the game started, retard, who the fuck drives from the right side too man. sigh, dammmmnnn dissapointed, really need to play more match but WHERE??? WHEN????? sigh. fuck fuck fuck, gotta train really seriously with the aboys.

and i think i kinda screwed up your day with my random convo? haha i guess i know what u mean, i guess u meant that second phrase u said. cya.. never.

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zomg im fucking fucking fucking red from spending 5 hours in the fucking sun today. arghhhh burnt like never before, and my swimming is fucked up to the max argh, damn damn damn slow. hahaha and on hindsight, its not that bad considered its a first since many many time haha. and i thought songyi freestyle today woohoo, i think i have a talent in teaching =D like real talent lol. but again, if i spent like one and a half hours teaching him andhe dosent get it, i MIGHT just get pissed hahaha.

argh anyway i was thinking about some things, weird habits about me. haha i think its cause of polo, cause i keep developing this weird habit of giving ppl a nickname with one syllabus, its like in a game when im lazy to shout the full name, i just give them a nice short name hahaha. nicholas will just be nick, davin wil just be wang and ben will be.. well.. ben lol. but wtf im starting to give everyone else a one syllabus name, jonathan becomes jon, oonbeng becomes beng, vinette becomes net, zelai becomes.. leo HAHAH ok its some lame class jokes heh. cool habit spotted by me heh.

haha and a levels ended. but ok so what? its damn overrated, for that split moment, u feel so fucking happy, but like 5min later you are like uh... ok... alevels are over... haha then u will just be stunned. but chem paper 1 was killer i guess. and when the examiner guy was collecting the paper, i was actually thinking like "hmm no more school?" and actually that thought itself kinda scares me, cause i realize this is the first holiday that wont be leading to more schooling, its just different i guess, i mean yea i do dread school when i was young and all but what the hell, no school at all? it feels wrong? no friends? ok u have friends but its no longer in the closed environment, now u actually have to stretch out to maintain your ffriendship and no ones gonna feed you anything anymore. no teachers no rules no detentions lol. but suddenly thrust into this society where we are actually accountable for everything about ourselves from now on, its just weird, and new and fresh i guess. for once, the prospects of going to jail over a crime seems so real, we aint kids anymore, we are just going to be another one out of those fucking million commuters out there travelling and working for ourselves in a few years time. sigh, maybe when we turn aroud, school IS a better option. oh but studying is definitely not a good option, school is lol. just school without the studying haha.

like for the past 6 years, i have come to realize that one of the greatest unchanging constant of my life is actually my teammates, i mean theres never a day or a long period of time that i'll forget about them or not think about them. haha especially after j1 and j2, i've come to accept them as arms and legs, they go beyond friendship and blood, its like just part of me already, i've never realized when i've become so attached to them but it was a nice feeling knowing that i belonged somewhere and for all of them to know that they belonged somewhere in my heart too. and after this last finals, i dont think i can ever forget all of them again, its just images that go through my mind everyday? havent actually gone through 2 days in a row not thinking about that day. haha yea it was bad, but the memory is addictive, its a day of wonderful polo and it was actually a day i thought we stood proud and tall as one. yea, it did break hearts, some of them yet still unmended, but its still really good memories if we come to think about it. haha its since forever that we do all sort of stuffs together, its like u guys are drawing me close to u everyday, no, not in the gay manner, but its like i never want to part with all these. such closeness and brotherliness (if theres such a word), when ideas can be transmitted without a word and moves can be organized with a flash of the eyes, and where everyone understands each other so fucking well, even anticipate their chess moves from the way they do stuffs. haha yea, i must say this year was really the best of my life, cause i must say, i've never felt closer to the team than before. yea we have good seniors and awesome juniors, but you know, in the end, i cant live without u guys (i think), haha i used to say that i'll give an arm or my life or trust the life of my son in any of you guy's arms. and i still do. nothing chances, 5, 10, 15 years down the road, i'll still do the same. its kinda going to drift i guess, no matter how many times we swear or promise to ourselves we are still gonna be as close as ever,it dosent happen, i really hope its different this time round but my hopes arent high. i've seen too many of these, pri 4, pri 6. sec2. sec 4. i know whats its gonna be like already, and i dread every fucking bit of it. i dont want to drift, i dont fucking want to not understand any of you anymore, we spent 6 years to build it to such a stage, i dont fucking want distance and time to make it fade, army friends, uni friends, girlfriends, colleagues, wives, wives friends... theres so many more ppl we will know in our lives,and maybe inadvertently, we will stop putting each other on priority lists, sure we wont FORGET each other, we'll see each other in coffee shops 30 years down the road and introduce our sons to each other, yea maybe thats about it. get it? fucking get it? i dont want THAT. i dont want to be just friends, i dont want the unchanging constand in my life to change and join the other changes, but its selfish on my part i know. everyone have their lives to lead, secrets to keep, family to raise. but i'll pray (note that i hardly do), that when we do meet up, we'll still be such brothers again. you guys are like my limbs, dont forcibly tear it away, i'll cry, i'll die. but i dont want either alright.

ok i think im half awake, typing in a state of dream mode. hhaha but i really thought about all these, and maybe for once, i thought, i dont really want alevels and school to end. cause ultimately, i'll lose somethings that i really really give a shit about.

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hahaha ALEVELS ARE FUCKING OVER. YYEA FUCK U IN THE ASS. or hmm, did it fuck me in the ass..

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hey, before i start, heres one for you stomper B, FUCK YOU.

things to note: Moro Islamic Liberation Front MILF HAHA

a levels suck. im gonna aim B for maths =((((((

things to do after A's:
polo
beg saimeng
burn notes
squash
basketball
clear burnt notes
dota
talk to old friends

and my dad dint allow me to swim cause it was raining and the risk of getting sick is too big. yea, maybe for old dudes like him, thats SIX years of swimming without getting sick and swimming while being sick -.- alive and well