was forced to think about my most hated topic today: death. between uncle kang passing, and my saying he might not be alive when eddie goes to the army. its.. alot to think about. 

 starting to question im just a round peg trying to get into this square hole of a job. or rather, this round peg, trying to get into this square hole of a life.

nothing that anyone thought ever used to affect me and how I think of myself. but one person later, it seems like now everything that everyone thinks affects me more than i imagine. i miss me.

 2024 taught me.. that no one will be coming to save you. In 2025, I strive to, very unoriginally, learn to love me. to love my own flaws, to love my own growth and its own pace, and to learn to love being unapologetically.. me.

 just been abit lost as of late. the things i used to tell and to share, the emotions i used to wear on my sleeves. 

im so tired of all of it. its 2025 and everything has been telling me im not good enough for everything.

 im... so tired.