Being bulletproof wouldn't matter if the bullet came from the inside

Fml

Fuck, gotta focus from start to finish. Argh focus focus focus, Asian games in less than a month and I'm still fucking dreaming 

It just feels like I'm a suffering you could do without and a restraint that's holding you back. 

Though, I'm not really surprised at all by now really. How much more do I have to give in to my passion. Maybe one day I'll wake up and realize that I'll never be best and it's all been a waste of time and sacrifices 

Once again feeling helpless. In the pool. Out the pool

Finger hurts like fuck. Living on the adrenaline every training. 

so we are going to korea. Yet till now I really cannot understand how those without passion can stay in this sport. Is glory alone enough to keep them going through these months and months of torturous physical training (granted they dont really come for all). sigh

What's the point of not wanting to accept solutions

Sorry I care

Always always playing the victim

Hmmm past few months have really been a blur. So much happened on both spectrums and so much emotions felt. Really hope to be able to be able to sit down and type them out soon but it seems like the really little free time I get to spend I end up typing things like "mid ms" or "smoke here" hahaha.

It's not them that get hurt. It's those around them 

It really says a lot when words from a random loser can cause this much

Untouchable, what they had will always be untouchable 

Fuck