Sigh I signed up for this hell didn't i

You don't see your past catching up do you

Well you were right about at least one thing, I realize all I've done amount to shit

Well, I def know how that feels like

How many of us have dreams when we're young, but how many of us will just join the rat race eventually and live the life we thought we hated. So many dreamers but so little believers.

Just never see a point punishing myself for things that are not my fault 

Confused. And frankly, just uncertain about so many things. Tough thoughts are meant to be kept to yourself if guess 

More leg strength. Def not enough 

Reading right on a food coma is a cardinal sin. First time I've taken a long nap in the evening in years 

Guess it's just not gonna happen then

In this journey to perfect yourself, don't lose what you already have

The best players play their best everywhere and everytime 

So hard to switch back into focus argh 

Zzzz fuxk all my stupid lobs 

Fragilities of the game. Take your eye off the game for a second and you're right back where you started. The truly best never rest I guess

Cause in the end, I can never stand to see what gave me meaning and hope in life to give despair and disappointment to others