The only reason either or both of them can do such a thing to you is... that they simply don't give a fuck about your existence or that you meant nothing to them, not once, not ever. The bad part about it is... I only expected that from one of them.

Actually after this, honestly when I see her with someone and him with anyone dumb enough to be his Friend lol, I don't feel envy Nor jealousy really. I'll feel happy for the 3 years I spent, bitter for that 9 years I spent, and ultimately, I think I feel more pity for whichever new person

My friends sometimes ask whether I blame you for it, to be able to do such things be it with alcohol or not. I don't know really, part of me really fucking hate you for it but i Guess the other part of me treats this just as price paid for all the nice things you've done for me. Guess we are even strangers now.

As for the other fucker, this is only the beginning. What we kicked you out of was something you never deserved in the first place. What I want to take from you in the future, are things you deserve and people and things you find important. Hurting me was so easy cause you were so close to me, hurting you would be easy too as Long as you stay close with people that I'm close with, runs both ways doesn't it

fucking coward. a thousand manly looking tattoos cant cover up what type of a coward you are.

sometimes i really wonder how do you attempt to act like a big brother and "teach" your younger siblings to behave lol. i can only pray for your mum they turn out less of a disappointment. going to a good school doesnt mean you cant be a disappointment all your life and you are the perfect testament to that.

its just amazing how some people truly believe they deserve better. applies to so fucking many people i know

Guess only sluts, drunk and stupid people give you the validation that you crave so badly.

Partnership with friends, no one has ever said anything good about you.

Excuse: oh girlfriend break up cant do work (LOL), someone else’s fault, someone else unclear direction

Polo, oh I COULD HAVE made blablabla team IF I HAD blablabla, yes yes keep kidding yourself eternal bench warmer.

Friendship, oh ITS SOMEONE ELSE’S fault ohhhhh, best one ever, I WAS GOING TO TELL YOU LOL. Three times all GOING TO TELL. Fucking kid.

Relationship. Lol tbh, nothing much to say here, just happy for all these girls to have left early, from what I know, they are all pretty happy now. Except for joy, shes stuck with trash

Some people aspire to be good at everything, but some people aspire to be good at nothing and good for nothing

at the end of the day when you are stuck with that ugly slut, you are going to wonder every single day of your life if shes going to be loyal (or if you are LOL) and wonder whether it was worth it pushing all your friends away for it. Yea you are right, she is different, the only thing different is that she's even easier than the past few ones lol

And for you, I really wish you never repeat those things to this guy. He seems nice, but drunk or
Not drunk, please. Hope he doesn't have one cunt of a best friend too

Actually the more I thought about all those little signs, the more I realised what a fucking dirtbag you are

That smile that was mine

Two biggest dramas in my life. I'm Glad both main casts are gone. For one of you, I loved you too much to hate you. The other one, I fucking hate you to the core. I will come one day, when you cannot afford the impact I will make, I will come. And I will let you feel the pain you made me feel ten times over. Friends, families, loved ones, none of them will matter to me, they are all casualties of war. A war you started. With rules you made. At least she gave so much to my life. You. You take, and take and take and take and never had enough to fulfil your greed and your lust. I know two wrongs don't make a right, but... it's all about feeling good isn't it?

keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer, but always, always keep your heart to yourself

And eventually I still return to those nights in the end. Tormenting me when we were together, and tormenting me now that we are not. Just that now, I know the torment is something I'm asking for.

All I want now is for my ideas and my passion to take off. Stuff success down the throats of all those that ever looks down on me. Those that out of jealousy, say shit like sports won't get you anywhere and that it won't make you rich and that you should date Doctors blablabla... I'll let them know that there is success after sports and you look like a loser to me when I was young and fit and cocky and you'll still look like a bunch of bitchy ass loser hypocrite with fucked up family problems even when I'm old, unfit and more successful than your lame ass life ever will be. Years ago I was driven by passion. Years later, I'm driven by fear. Fear that I'll just be another loser like so many I've seen.