good timetable!

aaaaand its a new week

ok i think jayesslee are just a tad overrated cause they are pretty right.. i mean nice voice and all but they arent MAGNIFICENT right

most fucking tiring week in awhile =( i dont think ive ever missed a single swimming set timings before for a damn long time and today just totally killed it ... no more streak =( two streaks gone in a week =(((( well physical pain kills emotional pain i guess. kinda welcome this torture but well.. its still a torture.

great playing polo with the guys again, we might not be super good but its happiness on another level, not in the we are playing damn well kind of happiness but more of we are enjoying the fuck out of ourselves type of happiness. but again i enjoy the fuck out of playing damn well too hmm

Omg in actually aching like fuck today, and it's only been three trainings:/ but on the bright side, this revised sprinting set is actually manageable

guess everyone was once a lovelorn idiot

maybe it just wanst meant to be between two who have been wounded so bad

1111!

If we had more time, if I could decide faster, if you could wait longer, if my heart wasn't this numb anymore, if if if If..

You once said the only way we will part is if I was the one who wanted out. Not holding you to it though, I wouldn't want to live knowing it hurts you everyday, and seems like this is the only way out I guess

ni zui jin hai hao ma
hai shi ni ye zai si nian li zheng zha

i wont beg but i truly wished you would stay. but even if it was a short time, thank you for letting me know what love is like again.

i figured i got to prioritize my life anyway, now i guess its made abit easier, school and polo. i want to be best in both, ok maybe not BEST in school or something but i would want to be the best that i can be for both.

todays swimming is fucking fucking absurd and apparently its happening on all mondays wednesdays and saturdays till end of aug. goodluck for us guys. but game was ok, getting the hand of things but must say my observation is still weak, taking a good shot dosent mean its a good play i guess. i want to be so much better, baby steps, baby steps.

hmm realized i used to threaten always facing the direction i will NOT be shooting but recently i went back to being orthodox and keep facing the side i shoot even if its the center. gotta randomize my shots abit more.

1111

1111, it used to mean something, argh just wtf is wrong with me it isnt supposed to be this hard.

it was a great 149 days streak wasnt it

Guess you were right, let's not quarrel anymore

just a faint smell, im sure it will be gone by 2mrw

aaaaaaand its deleted. ok im actually blabbering on my blog now. but i cant really say i didnt see it coming did i. the conditions were fulfilled, i shouldnt be sad at all.

fuckkk this whatsapp cant even delete a conversation properly, isnt it a fucking paid app?

at times like this i really hope neither of us regret, but we'll always remember that at some point of time in life thats what we wanted

fool me twice shame on me

omg dark knight rises tooooooo freaking nice, i wannna discuss with people!!

omg dark knight rises tooooooo freaking nice, i wannna discuss with people!!

boo shooting fucking off today, and really not used to the tactics we were doing today, no rest for the confused, full training week commmmming up

i cant settle for losing, i just fucking cant, but that kinda also makes me an asshole too i guess

finally back from three back to back camps!
redcross camp was pretty awesome, gonna try recapping names, hopefully i can remember up to 80 percent of the new names ive gotten over these camps. ok redcross camp hmm, benjamin shihui kenneth jiajie sleeve wenxiong weixiang lorayne yu e, i honestly hope i havent missed out anyone =( haha redcross camp wasnt exactly SUPER FUN, uh not like its meant to be right its a helping out camp. games were pretty normal, but abit sadly, the group wasnt really THAT interested with knowing each other i guess and we are pretty different, only similar in the aspect that we are here to clear our hours.i dont mean it in a way that there were unpleasant people or anything but more of not being able to click. the main work of redcross is fucking tiring, collected canfood and necessities from quite a few blocks of hdb flats in bishan, i think i might have actually  reached maybe 8 blocks or nine blocks over the last two days. but honestly, i dont really feel as if ive done much cip and help out other people cause well i dont actually see these cans of food going to them and really revitalizing them like popeye and his cans of spinach (god knows how much preservatives his has). hmm realized this post is actually kinda unvulgar for my standards. when im fatigued i feel like a different person, typing such mild stuff haha. back to the point, maybe i would wanna try ocip in the future, building houses or teaching kids and stuff, something that can put me in direct contact with them.


went home for a night and offffff i go again to the next camp

k next up was ftb, lets try with naming some names of people, im getting better i think, andrea shawn jessica azel amyrah kl larry li long sze waiy sin miao deborah colin gabriel jeannette zhengda shit i sure hope i dint miss out any, and if i do, none of them chance upon this blog haha. ok ftb was really quite nice i must admit, but not as nice as sports camp so guess im kinda fortunate to have went for ftb first =P haha ok the games werent all fun and all but it did help in bonding us i guess since its the main purpose of ftb, but the facis were amazing people, i think our camp was only so fun cause of LLL and szewaiy, a round of virtual applause to them. hmm most of the games were rather lame though i must admit, of course they did help us bond here and there but well its just not fun, but hehe free sleeping bag and stuff. but oh goddddd only when i returned to sarimbun did i remember my p5 camp days, how freakkking filthy it is, sandy toilets and muddy camp sites. but its quite sad they missed out the mud bath!!!! the fuckkking filthy one where u might lose your shoe and stuff, i remembered that one so fucking clearly but its GONEEEEEEEEEEEEE =( maybe someone died there or something i dunno. and at ftb u displayed my super mutant power of INsensitivity by pissing off three people in two nights haha, and maybe my further development of my powers allowed me to be ignorant to more people that i pissed off possibly. hmm having abit of trouble remembering the exact things we did, whole week was a rush of events. oh oh then there was performance night, a tad boring i must admit, since no one ever knows what each other is performing  they only concentrate on their own clan's performance. then there was the life band which also in my own honest and not so humble opinion, pretty cheap thrill, ok they werent THAT good, even from my highly unprofessional and musically untalented viewpoint, it was obvious the instruments were too loud and is drowning out the singer who wellllll, wasnt exactly top class either. and cheap thrill cause they knew that coming to such a camp to perform, there will definitely be no negative response from their audience haha. oh oh and i remembered that this hulk7 group is quite a competitive one, really do all types of shit to get bonus points, unorthodox, truly fits me haha. slut dances, mass massaging of the facis, blablabla stuff like that. haha truly amusing =P nice knowing all of you guys from mohulk!! been an honorrrr


andddd then its sports camp. haha sorry no offence to people from the other two camps but sports camp was crazy fucking awesome fun! many first times for me. first time winning anything at any camps, first time performing for any camp performance, first time giving a shit about a camp performance, first time having such a super highly competitive group, first time having my faci acting more as a manager than a ogl hahahaha, freaking awesome. really multitalented group, we have girls that can beat other groups' guys and guys who can thrash other groups' guys. its not just sports these people are good at, its really an amazing array of talents, but firstly, sports is like some given talent, everyone picks them up within the hour at an amazing pace, no fucking joke, athletes from almost every types of sports and their similar brother-sports (etc squash and tennis, swimming and polo, floorball and hockey), and on top of sports, charades, almost any other game, cheating, SONGS (this is no shit, guess the song champs), teamwork, acting, slutting up, slacking. omg its really everything. haha im really really fucking impressed with supeeeerman. i didnt really walk into the camp believing we were going to win awards and stuff i mean normally its always a mountain bigger than another mountain situation isnt it? but wow after this first day, its almost confirmed this was going to be an amazing run and hell yes it was =)))))DDDD first day we got a full win despite missing out on waterpolo, went on to the second day with full wins too, but the martial arts night was baddddd, clocked up some losses (pui its not even sports)!, then went on to win evvvverything but dragonboat and volleyball. setting several records along the way sigh, life of the talented HAAHAHA. and its not just that, its the first time in any camp ive felt that EVERYone of the group is bonded and contributing, sure some like to slack but everyone wants to win, like some fucking bloodlust or something, first time ive found friends outside of polo who share my competitive hunger, fucking awesome. love the way we lumber around in sleepyface mode and when the game starts, its gameface mode, then we win it and go back to sleepyface mode hahaha. awesomez. and the crazy personality of the people are always on at night or in the morning, sad to say i was on my singing mode most of te time i had my voice though hahaha. argh miss these guys times 11-239-1293 times, i know it dosent make sense lol. 


thats the camp of the one week camping exxxxperience!

glad to be back, but i cant fucking grasp this new shooting style argh, shooting percentage shittty

you have a great heart no matter how fucked up your situation is now or what you have become. thats alot more than i can say for myself at the moment, having a good heart. i would love to help, im long over it but i just hope a heart this good wouldnt go to a waste.

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

If one day all these come back in a full cycle, I won't complain

I'm nervous, camps have all been flipping awesome!!

Sometimes I try so desperately to justify my own actions but end up realizing I'm actually just wrong

doing everything and anything but packing for camp lol

Faillll againnnnn

hmm pretty happy with yesterday's swim, 10 by 400 without breaking 5.30 with decreasing rest. haha really felt like shit when i did it but the feeling of finally completing it with decent timing is pretty awesome.

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Argh what is this disgusting conversion rate that is plaguing me? Good plays simple shots and I can't finish them bleahhhh. And well the short talk we had today really had me thinking, can us not so talented ones make it?