Somehow I'm back here where we last parted, maybe forever. The mood is just is different indeed now that today is one of those new years eve i celebrate with the people who make me happiest. But it's like every place where used to have our footsteps is deeply embedded in my head

cant wait for nye 2mrw, meeting the boys again like tradition dictates hahaha.


all i want for christmas is you!! snsd version!!

training is the hardcore shitzz man, im seriously dying here. yet, its this feeling that mysteriously keeps me looking foward to training. i love it, i hope this never fades, i wanna play till my thirities too. btter still, play THROUGH my thirties.

sometimes i still do miss you, but life is just too fucking busy nowadays, i'll give missing you a miss for the time being, maybe i will realize its not so much part of my life as i think it is.

aching body really helps. for the mind to be at peace, let the body be in pieces first

Head above water. Observe even before shooting. Observe before getting the ball on a counter. Paddle with left hand so right hand is always ready.

Think I fractured my toe, billy really got some solid goat legs man

Fucky shooting day, damn bad shots man argh. Gotta get out of that imgonnashoot mode where I lose focus of the world but myself and shooting the ball. Fuckkkkkkkk need to train more

Wow days without training can be so slow and dull. Despite waking up late at 11am (yea that's late for me), there just seen to be too much spare time left and the whole day is spent in this perpetual sleepiness. Merry Christ as everyone!

You can never surpass a player that you admire

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Please fucking remember it

Cause in another life, you will be my girl.

You are all that my life lacks to be complete now, I can't say I'm sad cause the rest of my life is awesome, it's just wasted

Argh so fucking irritating, it's not bad playing but it's the little stupid mistakes that irks me much argh. Gotta cut down on them, I'm actually pretty happy cause I can feel that I'm slowly back to playing my highest level, soon, all there's left is improvement where I left off the last time. Days like these just make you feel out of the world happy but I'm kinda also ready for those reality check days/period of days where you just seem to play the crappiest ever where passes don't go where they should and shots just keep hitting the mfucking bar even in easy scenarios

Snsd addiction is worse than smoking hahaha

Proud to say I'm one it the last remaining blogger users heh

Reading really makes me sleepy? Slightly over an hour of it and I'm dozin off, in a Starbucks somemore embarrassing max.

Ever loved somebody so hard that you forgot to love yourself?

Not tiring enough!!! Not satisfied yet argh, if it's not tiring it's not training

Funny, my mum can't get over my brothers ex

Argh I don't want to sign up for some fucking stupid english course to appease my parents, ok fine I have no choice but even if I have to take an English course, I dont wanna take the one that's so fucking difficult that even the angmohs there told me it will be fucking difficult sigh, and worse still I haven't checked it it will clash with training times. Plus it's a six month fucking commitment man.

And I'm kinda sorry for starting a fight with Eden though heh, angst max sorry bro!

Just finished we got married taeyeon version, sigh it's really nice she's really so cuteeee and pretttyyy and so funny!! Why must this fat man cheat on him! Not really a supporter of jelly pudding couple but jelly all the way!!! This is serious addiction man taeyeon!

Fighting!!!!!!!!!

Actually felt quite good today, no really big mistakes just the small minor ones, slowly getting back to speed with the falling formation, I'm pretty fast I guess just gotta be able to play more at the top speed

Snsd videos really make my day but ruin my life hahaha, a worthwhile sacrifice no doubt lol, at the pool now waiting for ten thirty training to start, it's ten forty five. Knnnn

the more i play it the more i want it, its like an addiction to the fatigue of the body

i wanna be faster, i know im meant to be faster than this comeon.
and fuck fuck fuck fuck my ball observation

People tend to get or wrong, it's not that I don't tire, it's more like I cant allow myself to, in order to be the player I want myself to be and the person I want myself to be, im trying to curb that hyperactive attitude I used to have during games, need to conserve every bit for the next swim or the next counter.

Some guys Are like trees, they take forever to grow up. Hahaha how fucking true!

Omg snsd videos are robbing me of my life!!!!!

and this snsd craze is seriously going to make me single for life

hahaha its damn tiring mannnn played game in school in the morning and then mega weights in the evening. and next weeks one is gonna be worse omg. 

too lazy for a longer post but gotta love snsd videos, shallow like hell but satisfying like hell

On days when you feel like shit, you just wanna stick one in and tell the world to fuck off

WHY TAEYEON WHY SO PRETTTTYYYY

play seriously, anytime anywhere, when did i actually think i could start playing as if im better than anyone. fucking remember it man

Damn awesome now that I can blog from my iPhone hahaha save all those previous time at home heh. Oh my god yesterday's gotta be the most fun I had in quite a while hehe, snsd concert was super fucking awesome, I can wish for no better companion too, Zhonghan was a bloody idiot during the concert hahahaha, from our constant insults on our not so liked snsd members to the discussions of some of the weird fans present at the concert. The concert itself was on another level of spectacular-ness hahaha the visuals were damn crazy and the atmosphere was just high like hell, they are really loved I guess! Haha freaking hell I love the floating platforms where they sing On its super awesome!! Taeyeon Is really fucking fucking prettttrty, her singing is Damb sick too( heavy metal seriously!!) and Tiffany is super cool in real life too. Yoona is needless to say super flawless hahaha and I changes my mind about Jessica too, she's quite pretty and good at singing hahaha in gushing here like a fangirl hehe, after that had the craziest drinking with the guys, worst night ever with the best friends ever, wouldn't have it any other way heh. Shit that's gotta be the last time I ever emo drink, too old for that shit, gotta be the first time I drank to the point of memory loss haha, but best friends. Explains it all . I realize my singing isn't that bad when im drunk too hahaha

Worst night ever with the best people ever

i like to retreat into my little hole of physical fatigue whenever theres stuff i dont want to think about, not that it helps in the long run, but in the short run, it helps to know the hearts pain can be numbed by your body

Then are the days like this, when you feel that it's not that bad to be with someone after all, but worry not, 90percent of the time I still feel that im too awesome to share my life with any other girl

If I could do what he did, I would be a main character too haha

faster stronger sharper

I'm sure that at one point of time in life, everyone had somebody they would do anything for, but eventually we all transcend it, we no longer accept a new special person in but even a decade down the road later we would still do anything for that original someone. Guess future me has no power over past me.

how do i put it, its just so... different.

finally back after a long vacation, i think im still myself best in the pool when i dont have time to think of anything else. when i just act on my instinct and follow trainings.

yet sometimes i still manage a wry smile when i think of it all

feels good not to be in the army, but i'll seriously miss the free weights session there with awesome people (namely me) sigh. but again, no one can give me shit like they do in army again.

walked past botanic garden the other day, totally different from those days, its as if it has moved on with time, maybe telling me that its the same for me too. walking past that familiar road, but alone this time. somethings are really meant to be kept in your heart i guess

and what the fuck was with that performance yesterday, i dont think i can call that playing polo at all. reminder to scold myself when im reflecting next time. that standard is just........................... i imagined myself playing better polo than that even on my worst days, but as usual, i outdo my expectations.

finalllly ord!!!! god that was long and ardous. just in case you were wondering, im not going to post a long reflectiv post about army, maybe not yet anyway. haha the first is always the best, my first shift on pawai, i met the most awesome pawai rangers, minus wesley, and my first unit in army, i met the most awesome shit army buddies! met up to play soccer yesterday, super awesome ppl, made remember why i dint go mad in bmt. with all the shit that was going on then, i thought it was bound to happen sooner or later, but thank god for them, kept me grounded, sane and brought me smiles in a place i thought least likely to find it. 11pm to 1am soccer ftw, i feel like shit now cause of it hahahaha. pineapple tarts guys!

its like glass, once broken, the cracks will remain, no matter how hard we look through it, our image of each other will be cracked and distorted

you deserve the best, i wish i could be the best, but i cant lie, not to you.

drunk since last night, fml