Perpetually physically and mentally tired

Then now it's the listening and quoting emo songs, using this thing as an excuse to drink more, going out with random other people period. Maybe that's the definition of hardening heart. So damn tired of it all

Fucking no appetite at all everytime we do this dance over text. Fuck me seriously

Waking up every morning to the same

Shittiness

Fucking ridiculous how I need to give them some post relationship review. Fuck

I just wanna go home. It's lonely there too but I wanna be lonely in somewhere familiar 

Really can't go on With this double life 

how long more before you are considered too old for these childish dreams of being number 1

so much to learn. there's something about getting owned by kids and admiring the way they play that makes you rethink about your evaluation of your own standards.

after 25.5 years alive, i finally realized that my life revolves around inadequacies. Realized that I am inadequate as a player, inadequate as a coach, inadequate as a teammates, inadequate as a student (duh), inadequate as an employee, inadequate as a boyfriend and also inadequate as a son. I try to overcompensate all these inadequacies by "trying very hard" at things but after 25.5 years, i realized that maybe im just shit at all of it

3rd day in serbia and its been pretty damn tiring. feeling fucking shitty cause of what happened with everything between sarah and i. Its just shit being in a foreign country and being mostly physically tired and then emotionally fucked. I know i deserve it though so i just have to learn how to compartmentalize isnt it? I dont know what will happen when that fails but right now, all i can do is try it i guess.

morning gym with water focused on individual skills then evening more water, argh, much more than i bargained for. and the core is fucking aching like mad.

Everyone's just been saying how 2016 has highs and lows and what not but seriously which year doesn't have its share of that. 2016 hasn't been really downtohell bad nor has it been sofuckinggoodimgoingtocry good, just filled with a lot of different experiences. From getting my first major ass injury to having an interesting internship at ax, to returning to school for my last sem, to adopting a dog with Sarah, to going Europe for 3 months with Sarah, to making decisions I'd never think I'd make. All I can say is that.. It's been interesting.. 

I wish all (including myself), wise decisions, strong conviction and above all, good luck