do i have to prepare for the day too? the day that passion changes to fear

When you find out your whole life, you've just been a giant recipient of charity 

Raf

Ygbfkm, ep?!?!

Bleh things I can't tell anyone else but the one I wanna talk to isn't here bleh 

My training trip can be as much of a joke to anyone else, but as long as I don't treat it like a joke, it's alright :)

Fucking idiot. Haven't you learnt to shut up about what you feel

Lol. What a miserable state. Never forget you are here for polo, things that aren't worth shouldn't affect 

Sometimes when I see those messages from/to that hypocrite, I get strangely amused

Deviating my posts from people I hate, this has been a tough trip physically and mentally and from the bottom of my heart I wish that all my teammates can find peace one way or another at the end of it and when It is announced. Because you aren't brothers after drinking from the same cup, you are brothers after fighting for the same goal. 

Really can't. I have a job, a duty to fulfil and I can't afford to be derailed by anything. Can't fall sick waiting either. What is the point when the people most worried about it are those that are joint to you merely by the passion of the sport. Fucking shit place to fall sick. And yes, fuck you asshole

Really fucking hate this guy

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Falling sick in japan but just have to chxkeldfldospdkrnahsuoxxj

Lel snap somemore. Just fo

Fmfjffo

Shameless fuck

My friends are like my family to me so..

Fuck this fuck japan fuck everything. Don't be so fucking happy to know you're part of my life everytime then take equal fucking pleasure in tearing it 

It's all just masks no? Fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me

Fuck

It's my fucking career. No one should be involved I know. Remember the 3 years you have left, just remember them well

All these while, I guess I'm subconsciously allowing it to, I can't. Not anymore, I can't afford to anymore. If to ensure my performance isn't affected, I have to feel less think less care less then ffs

Really fuck fuck fuck fuck feeling all these shit. You're the fucking best and you will be the fucking best, nothing can ever affect your polo. Nothing 

I'll be ok anyway I guess.. Kinda... Eventually.. Or something