haha sometimes its so much easier to accept the fact when you say it out loud.

and i wanna watch kungfu panda but no one is fucking replying me

hey fuck this im tired. im just a fox in this food chain, eating the really weak but hunted by the really strong.

ok i was in the mood for blogging until i got rejected my smu. so im just going to go in pointer form.

survivor Nicaragua was really nice, boston rob got all respect.

i need to visualize for polo

pirates of the Caribbean was damn damn awesome

你最近还好吗
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发隐藏

argh my eyes fucking fucking fucking hurt from the chlorine, its fucking blurry argh. but everything i do dont ever ever seem to be enough man.

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,

ok sometimes i do realize that its impossible to hold on to any given moment in your life. just reflecting, how i used to think my primary school friends were indispensable and that i couldnt do without them, then i thought my secondary school friends were indispensable too and so on and so forth, when we are young and naive we always think that everything lasts forever. but after 20 years, ok ALMOST 20 years, i guess its not always like this, just holding on to memories of people and hope friendship or relationships last this way isnt possible, its like trying to stop the changes that occur when you people part. We all know that change is the only constant, trying to deny that fact is just like trying to tell ourselves that the 4 seasons dont exist in the world simply because we are living in sunny singapore: what we see dosent take place. haha just thinking, one my random thoughts before i sleep. the super mystery of why my brain is so dead when im awake and it goes hyper before i sleep, just when im lying on my bed. screw it man im losing lots of sleep thinking of such rubbish hahaha.

and on another note, toapayoh is a magical place, it NEVER EVER EVER RAINS from 7pm to 915pm. i swear, since last year, or at least the times i went for training.

and on another another hand (dont ask me where i get 3 hands), im freaking shit tired from training, and my eyes are getting from bad to worse, hurts like a bitch

fast 5 was a superb movie ahaha, maybe cause i watched the past movies pretty recently thats why it looked so nice since they brought back all the characters heh

lesson learnt today: there is no rest in the path to the top

2 years back and 2 years forward, its almost the same. with the only difference being memories.

work that freaking left leg, apparently it has a big difference on my posture, and i have no idea why my shots are going damn low these days, maybe ever since i tried to bounce the ball zzz.

a longggg weekend and i did... nothing lol. ok saturday was abit eventful, watched thor and went for yongzhi's gf's birthday party, hahaha damn awesome meeting the signal guys again and nice to meet new friends from different nationality, like true blue thais haha, who speak true blue thai lol. its kinda funny hearing them say it. and the drinking game was just awesom hahaha, friendly ppl with lots of food with lots (and lots) of drinks makes a happy night. oh and chelsea winning it controversially helps too hahaha.

but seriously friday saturday sunday monday, supr weekend, i think i played at least 15 games of dota. wtf?!!??!?! im turning to a nerd. but wrist is actually tired from using the mouse lol. shit, no polo somemore cause of the saudi trip and the holidays FUCKKKK. ok imma swim abit 2mrw at tpy, pray that its open lol