Amazing weekend :33

Fuck

I don't even know how he even got into this whole shit. Wtf. Just fuck off for good. I don't know how you'll feel with me reminiscing and shit but I hate it 

Useless is when you need to hear those words to sleep properly. Useless 

I guess you can say anything when you're angry

Always the wet blanket to life

argh longest rut ever, like building up all over again, from the very scratch, i feel like im climbing back up from the bottom, learning from the basics all over again. maybe that should be it

Finally home and finally gonna train, really gotta put in a hell lot more. Nobody needs to see you behind the scenes and slogging, they just want to see you at your best when performing, it's a stage out there and I long to be nothing but the lead 

theres a first for every bad competition, but let there not be a second

Just doing what I can 

Supposed to be really happy right

How am I supposed to like you having crazy friends when I hate you doing crazy stuff

At least one of us feels happy

Just shut up and keep to yourself, no one wants your opinion

Seriously can you all just fuck off

If you're not trying to be the best, you're not trying 

lemme finish these exams, then im going to return with a fervour

After all that shit about not being the best for me, I start to wonder if you think it's me who's not the best for you

Learning to not be useless

It's just like that Sunday all over again

Tearing my heart out 

Omfg fucking killing me

I never wanna live without you but I know I must at least learn it somehow 

Really need to talk but what's new

Never thought there'd be a day you'll be happier when I'm not there. But hey there's a first for everything.

Never had supporters when I was an underdog. Don't need them even if I become a superstar

See if promised bf no?

Please let me have the professionalism to never be affected again 

Every trip it's something I guess. Gotta adjust myself instead 

Feeling sick but only polo can wake me up and shake my soul like that

Only then did I realize how much I've changed. Slowly but surely I realized how from reckless and rashful I've become careful and cautious. When I finally have to protect something. From the guy who had no respect for anyone to the guy who's starting to respect too much. But that's what defined my game. Time to bring the old times back. Let the good times roll

cant forget what im here for man, its not a holiday, not a study trip. please remember your purpose for being here and never NEVER let anything affect that unnecessarily.

just stay away from us. from me. from sarah. from everyone i care about. dont affect my life any more than you did already

Ffs I thought Myanmar was bad enough 

Fuck.

All I wanted was a dosage of happiness... Or a dosage of rest. Got neither. Thanks